"My Own Goliath: A Fragmented Reckoning"
In the wake of a significant chapter in my life—a six-year-long relationship's end—I embarked on a creative journey inspired by the introspective works of both Caravaggio and Andrea del Verrocchio. Just as Caravaggio had depicted himself as Goliath, reflecting on his own past misdeeds, and del Verrocchio had explored the theme in his own masterful way, I sought to confront my own inner demons through my art, embracing it as a form of flagellation.
In this deeply personal sculpture, titled "My Own Goliath," I portrayed myself as the formidable Goliath, mirroring the immense guilt that had weighed on me following the relationship's conclusion. I felt burdened by the perception that the entire responsibility for our parting rested squarely on my shoulders, leading me to question my own morality and worthiness.
The decision to represent myself as Goliath, a symbol of strength and power, was an acknowledgement of the heavy responsibility I had felt for the relationship's end. Just as Caravaggio and del Verrocchio had used art to come to terms with their own interpretations of the "David and Goliath" theme, I too turned to sculpture as a means of reckoning with my own actions and choices.
With the removal of David's head and the fragmentation of Goliath's body, the sculpture now tells a story of shared transformation and culpability. It illustrates that in the wake of a relationship's conclusion, both parties experience profound changes and losses. This narrative of mutual responsibility and growth invites viewers to explore the complex emotions that accompany love, loss, and personal reflection.